Sensory Overload

  • NB: I wrote this in November 2010, not for world poetry day 🙂 It was written to explain my feelings… Thank you all for the positive feed back on this poem! 🙂

    To cover my ears and block out the world
    To rock it so gently away
    To shut my eyes and pretend I’m elsewhere
    To hum so there’s nothing left
    To bang my head so the confusion is gone
    To curl up so I feel safe and warm
    To hide under blankets so I can feel hugged
    To be without words so alone and lost
    To have my body not do what I want
    To cry loudly so I can let it all out
    To be overloaded so scared and afraid
    To be frustrated no one understands my pain.

     

    —Posted below is the original draft of the poem, I kind of put all those To’s there to rain the ME out of the poem. I really didn’t like those feelings anymore —

     

    Cover my ears and block out the world
    Rock it so gently away
    Shut my eyes and pretend I’m elsewhere
    Hum so there’s nothing left
    Bang my head so the confusion is gone
    Curl up so I feel safe and warm
    Hide under blankets so I can feel hugged
    Be without words so alone and lost
    Have my body not do what I want
    Cry loudly so I can let it all out
    Be overloaded, scared and afraid
    Be frustrated that no one understands me
    That no one understands my pain.


    November 28th, 2010 | Matty Angel | 1 Comment |

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Matty is a 36 year old girl who is an Autistic Poet, Writer and Artist and lives alone in Christchurch New Zealand with a kitty! Matty has given many talks on autism and about being unique in a world that's often not accepting, Matty has also engaged with artist and worked on Art projects Matty usually works on an Art project at the same time as a writing one! This means posts can be a bit delayed!

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  • Helen 11.28.2010

    It’s a wonderful description, Matty. I’m glad you don’t feel like this much anymore!

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