I have done the impossible
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NB: As many of you who know me, know… I am currently on a very tiresome scary long journey. This journey is full of self discovery, sorrow, tears and joy… Its a journey of identity… Who I am, what I am, where I am and where I’m going. I don’t know right now what exactly will happen… but whatever does I hope not everyone will abandon me. I am so grateful for those of you who are supporting me now, thank you so much. I hope that I am not a burden while I become the person I have always been… But in a way that strangers may condemn and judge, without knowing me at all.
I have done the Impossible
I have done the impossible
With a very fearful gulp
I have told the people who I am afraid of
That I can no longer live a lie…I know that they don’t understand
And do not accept who I am,
But despite this I’m now free of a burden
And can begin to move on with my life…And although I don’t know where this path will take me
I know at times it will be lonesome,
Will I get through this and survive?
I hope that I am strong enough.I wish it was some kind of choice
But its not that simple and that hurts,
Simplicity would be a blessing,
Cause the confusion is so painfulWell at least its done now,
I can take a breath
But there will be hurt to come
I know some people will abandon me…
The question is… Which ones.
About The Author
Matty is a 36 year old girl who is an Autistic Poet, Writer and Artist and lives alone in Christchurch New Zealand with a kitty! Matty has given many talks on autism and about being unique in a world that's often not accepting, Matty has also engaged with artist and worked on Art projects Matty usually works on an Art project at the same time as a writing one! This means posts can be a bit delayed!
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You are not alone. And, as long as you do not abandon yourself, all will be smooth again and rocky, such is life. However, good on you for taking the leap of authenticity and struggling with its ramifications! It will be worth it. Breathe easy and know that others are doing the same in different ways at different times, but frequently enough to create a better world for all of us. I always hold your journey in my kindest thoughts. Peace!
Matty – it was such a big step for you to take and I admire you so much for taking it! Just know that there are many of us here who will continue to support you in this journey. You are strong and you will come through. My thoughts and love as you follow your path.
Even though this is something you need and want to do, doesn’t make it any easier, so big hugs for taking that difficult step Matty. You have so much to offer, and aren’t a burden, so take comfort in the fact, there will always be people who care for you, and are there for you.
In a round about way Matty it’s kind of like a “leap of faith” ……. signifying a change for you from one quality to another and for those around you to trust in and accept that change.
There will be some hurt and pain along the way but the strength you have shown already to walk this path is evidence in itself to me and am sure many others that you have an inner strength Matty that maybe you don’t even realise you have
There will always be people that will walk this path with you don’t ever forget that………..
“Walk Strong Walk Proud” my friend.
hugs and hugs. You are so amazing, Matty. You have come so far, come through so many hard times. You’ll get through this one, too! Love you, sweety.
Hi Matty..
You are amazing and an inspration to so many..I have gone through a lot of sad things in my life but reading your poems has helped me heaps..it doesn’t matter how much hurt we get in our lives there always seems to be a rainbow in the clouds..
Keep up the good work..You are very talented..I write peoms sometimes but nothing like you do..
Hugs from Sandy..