Its time to ask those questions (Poem – What I have been up to)
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NB: Hello everyone, thank you all for for your support and for being patient with the lack of posts lately. As you know I started dance and that’s been busy, but also as of Friday I have begun psychiatric assessments to help me find some answers about myself… and give me a better understanding of my differences and disabilities. Its something I have decided to do and its something I have been afraid to do for a long time. As many of you know I struggle with being different. So please wish me well and thank you all for your support.
Its time to ask those questions
For the longest time I have been afraid
To ask the questions that I need to ask about myself
And seek out the answers that may help me understand
But also… scare me… as answers sometimes do…However here I am at last…
After a journey that’s been up and down
Am I still afraid?
I think so… But I know this is what I have to do.I don’t know exactly how this will go
And if the answers will help me in the long term
What I do know at this moment though…
Is that this is just something I need to doSo wish me luck
Wish my love
Thank you all for your support
And be patient with me…This really is a journey into the unknown.
About The Author
Matty is a 36 year old girl who is an Autistic Poet, Writer and Artist and lives alone in Christchurch New Zealand with a kitty! Matty has given many talks on autism and about being unique in a world that's often not accepting, Matty has also engaged with artist and worked on Art projects Matty usually works on an Art project at the same time as a writing one! This means posts can be a bit delayed!
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This is a beautiful poem, I hope you find the answers you seek.
Dear Mattie
It has been a long time since I met you but I do read your poems and posts. I wonder if Waistcoat Bear still wears his red and black waistcoat now.
I hope you find answers to your questions and that they help you progress in your move ahead. Do remember what I said, no matter what you find out, you are a beautiful person in looks and inside. You just have to learn to believe that yourself and you will have jumped a mile ahead.
Good luck, I am sure that you will find the assessments helpful.
I am so impressed by you. Thank you for chatting with me 🙂
Good luck! 🙂
This is a very good and mature decision you have made! I am so happy you have made it! It is good to move forward and not become stuck in a rut of wondering if we might have been able to expand our experiences in life for the good through needed changes etc Good Job! Don’t get discouraged with the process it is a process and takes time. And has ups and downs. But the end result is good. Have a great week Matty!
Dear Matty 🙂 I am constantly in awe of you. You bravely tread where s many others are afraid to walk. Looking into yourself is one of the hardest things any of us can do. I am so happy you are seeking answers to your differences. I hope and I pray that you find answers that all help you continue to grow as a person and answers that give you some peace and understanding.
Hugs, love and much luck Matty as you once again step out onto another adventure 🙂
Vanessa
Good luck! 🙂