Just thoughts about Autism (Kind of poem)
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NB: Autism awareness month has been full of people saying I should be “proud” to be autistic and that there should be “more understanding” instead of awareness of what is needed to support people like me. I think sometimes the Autism community is its own worst enemy, because it turns things into an “us” against “them” kind of thing. Like its some kind of war. When really… I love being part of my community when I can.
Just thoughts about Autism
I hate having autism,
Its not awesome to me or great
Often people say “Understanding” is the problem…
But understanding doesn’t give friendships or conversation.Others say “Stop trying to cure Autism”
Yet… my goal has always been to overcome all I can.
Isn’t that a kind of cure? Rising above the challenges?If there was a potion to rid it away though,
I would take it in a second.
Others may get upset by this… but…
I believe I am more than just Autistic.That’s why I like to say
Matty Angel, Autistic Writer, Artist and Poet.
Because although I am Autistic, its just 1 small part of who I am.I also really don’t like neurodiversity
I see Autism as disability,
IÂ HATE the word “Neurotypical”
No one is neurologically typical. Its a very illogical term.I guess what I am saying is…
I don’t like this, I am not proud…
I spend a lot of time crying,And I’m allowed to feel this way,
Because I am me…
And no one else can feel for me.
About The Author
Matty is a 36 year old girl who is an Autistic Poet, Writer and Artist and lives alone in Christchurch New Zealand with a kitty! Matty has given many talks on autism and about being unique in a world that's often not accepting, Matty has also engaged with artist and worked on Art projects Matty usually works on an Art project at the same time as a writing one! This means posts can be a bit delayed!
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Hugest of hugs Matty, I don’t have Autism but how I wish there was a cure so that you could stop crying and feeling so alone. I love that you have so many facets to your personality and your gifted writing always brings me such pleasure. Thank you Matty for being you – yes even the bit that is Autistic. Maybe without that disability you would look at the world differently and not write, draw or live in the delightfully unique way that is you – all of you ) Thank you for the pleasure you bring to my life just by begin you .
You are so good at writing I can see and feel what you are writing about.