Anxiety (Poem)
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NB: I always find myself waiting on others to respond to me, and sometimes that waiting consumes me 🙁 Anxiety is one of the worst things in the world. If it be the loud noises that make me hyperventilate, unexpected touch, the cost of the vet… or someone getting back to me about something so important… It can ruin my life. This poem is about some current anxiety.
Anxiety –
My mind is always full of thoughts
Thoughts of fear, worry and dread
I keep waiting for the worst to come
And it starts to become maddeningI find myself unable to function
Crying…
Pacing…
Hoping with all my heart these thoughts are wrong…
But there’s a pit in my stomach…
And it won’t go away.What if they’re right?
What if there’s truth in these thoughts?
Would I survive that?
Or would it consume me?Oh thoughts
Please go away…
Just leave me be.
I know your just anxiety…I just want to be me,
Not this creature your trying to make me.
About The Author
Matty is a 36 year old girl who is an Autistic Poet, Writer and Artist and lives alone in Christchurch New Zealand with a kitty! Matty has given many talks on autism and about being unique in a world that's often not accepting, Matty has also engaged with artist and worked on Art projects Matty usually works on an Art project at the same time as a writing one! This means posts can be a bit delayed!
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Wow, Matty. How amazing you are to be the creative, funny, kind person you are while carrying the weight of anxiety, plus your autism, and all the other problems you have. You are amazing. <3
Another amazing piece of work and insight into the amazing girl we have come to know as Matty.
Sending you warm hugs Matty you captured the feeling of anxiety perfectly Just remember to stay strong and seek out those who love you when those thoughts come knocking
That was so wonderfully written. Sending you hugs.