So Much Has Happened

  • So Much Has Happened

    So much has happened
    And it all happened fast
    I spent years surviving…
    And now I can breathe at last.

    There are no more cold nights
    No more huddling in the dark.
    I no longer need to hide…
    Or find the courage to go on.

    What has happened was wrong
    I know that now,
    Letting go the guilt though…
    That is a hard task.

    What if I did this?
    What if I did that?
    These questions keep me up at night
    They eat at my mind

    And then there is that one…
    That question that makes me cry
    Why could they not love me?
    Why… why… why?

    I hope one day my brain can ease
    And I can one day finally rest
    No more nightmares
    No more tears…

    Most of all….
    No more questions
    No more fear.


    April 16th, 2022 | Matty Angel | 2 Comments |

About The Author

Matty is a 36 year old girl who is an Autistic Poet, Writer and Artist and lives alone in Christchurch New Zealand with a kitty! Matty has given many talks on autism and about being unique in a world that's often not accepting, Matty has also engaged with artist and worked on Art projects Matty usually works on an Art project at the same time as a writing one! This means posts can be a bit delayed!

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