That Dark Cloud.
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NB: I am currently going through some very sensitive time consuming things. These things have to do with some very terrible incidents that happened in my past. When I wrote this I was not feeling very brave. But I am feeling much braver now. I am sorry if this makes anyone sad.
-Love Matty
That Dark Cloud.
All around me is a very dark cloud
Can’t out run it, even if I go fast
Keep hoping to find a way out,
But I can’t see… Its just to dark.I really hope there is a break soon
For sunshine to begin to come through
I just need a little bit of hope you see,
I don’t know how much longer I can be.I have to turn around and face the past
And Find a way through all this dark.
Accept what happened was not my fault
Come to terms with what has been and goneBut I can’t…
I just can’t…
I wish I was brave
But I am a coward,
I am afraidThe past is terrifying
A monster in the night
But unless I can do this…
I will be haunted for life.I wonder if people will think less of me
For what I have been through and what I have seen
Will judge me and my decisions made?
Can they still treat me the same?I guess I should stop thinking now
Its not like I will face the past
Like I said, I am a coward
And that is why I remain in the dark.
About The Author
Matty is a 36 year old girl who is an Autistic Poet, Writer and Artist and lives alone in Christchurch New Zealand with a kitty! Matty has given many talks on autism and about being unique in a world that's often not accepting, Matty has also engaged with artist and worked on Art projects Matty usually works on an Art project at the same time as a writing one! This means posts can be a bit delayed!
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And look at how much you’ve faced, and how very far you’ve come. I’m glad you’re still alive and trying. Hugs and hugs
I’d never think less of you for not feeling brave. I’m glad you’re feeling more brave now, though. *hug*