Questioning who I am.
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Today I was told I was manipulative…
And that I used sympathy for attention
I am not fully sure what that means…
But; its made everything feel different.Am I truly this way?
A kind of monster who preys?
Is how I am wrong in some way?
Do I only cause pain?I tried my best to be kind
To give everyone time
Show love to those alone
And make people feel valuedBut perhaps if I was watching
Looking from the outside in
I would see what these people claim
And be disappointed at my existence.I have a lot of feelings right now
And they are all so intense…
Nothing makes sense,
My world is a mess.
About The Author
Matty is a 36 year old girl who is an Autistic Poet, Writer and Artist and lives alone in Christchurch New Zealand with a kitty! Matty has given many talks on autism and about being unique in a world that's often not accepting, Matty has also engaged with artist and worked on Art projects Matty usually works on an Art project at the same time as a writing one! This means posts can be a bit delayed!
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I don’t think you’re that way or that you’re a monster that preys. How you are isn’t wrong in some way and you don’t only cause pain. All we can do is try our best and you always do that. Nobody is perfect so there will be times people misunderstand but that doesn’t mean you’re a monster.