Still Here
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Its been months since I have slept at night.
I twist and turn, I cry…
Something feels broken inside,
Its keeping me up at night.I just don’t know who I am anymore
Yet 6 months ago I was sure.
My trust in others has eroded
And my beliefs have been shattered.I find myself paranoid,
“Do others think the same of me”
Keeps going through my head.
Her words echoing constantly.“Vindictive,
Heartless,
Tantrum,
Unsafe”I am made out like I’m a monster,
And made to feel talking about it all is wrong
But what I am suppose to do?
Living with it killing my soul.
About The Author
Matty is a 36 year old girl who is an Autistic Poet, Writer and Artist and lives alone in Christchurch New Zealand with a kitty! Matty has given many talks on autism and about being unique in a world that's often not accepting, Matty has also engaged with artist and worked on Art projects Matty usually works on an Art project at the same time as a writing one! This means posts can be a bit delayed!
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Oh, Matty. Everything feels bad when you don’t get enough sleep. I’m like that myself. Then worrying about that gets you in a circle. Sometimes things people say are just hurtful and sometimes they’re helpful. You have to filter out the wrong ones. You’re a good person. Try to break out of this circle. Less worrying, a bit more self care and some more sleep.
*hugs*