Am I Heard? (Poem)

  • Am I Heard?

    Do you ever think loudly?
    Well I sure do,
    I ponder these questions
    But no answer will do

    I stay wide awake
    Staring at the stars
    Hoping deep down
    That something new will come.

    But I find myself lost
    Just waiting alone
    Wishing and dreaming
    For what I don’t know

    Perhaps I am strange?
    Explaining it wrong?
    But I hope you understand
    At least in some form

    I think I seek Quiet,
    Silence from my mind
    Just a break from the noise
    Do you see it like I?

    My brains being squeezed
    And my thoughts are too deep
    I hope I’m explaining
    I just wish to be free

    Just a short moment
    A second of time
    To just breathe and sit still
    And enjoy what is life

    To just hear my heart beat
    No worries at all
    Thoughts would cease
    And I could enjoy it all

    Do you understand?
    I don’t think you will
    But on the small chance
    Please tell I’m heard.

    I am so tired
    It just all hurts
    Pondering those questions
    Where no answers will work.

    -Matty Angel


    July 12th, 2023 | Matty Angel | 1 Comment |

About The Author

Matty is a 36 year old girl who is an Autistic Poet, Writer and Artist and lives alone in Christchurch New Zealand with a kitty! Matty has given many talks on autism and about being unique in a world that's often not accepting, Matty has also engaged with artist and worked on Art projects Matty usually works on an Art project at the same time as a writing one! This means posts can be a bit delayed!

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  • Vic 07.12.2023

    It can be frustrating and exhausting when searching for answers and none come. Even though it’s not satisfying, it’s ok to not know even if only for now. Sometimes we figure things out eventually but our brain needs a break from all the thinking. Sometimes that’s easier said than done but sometimes it can help to remind ourselves it’s ok to not know.

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