Always in my heart (Personal poem)

  • NB: This is just me thinking out loud about my dearest and closest friend who has passed on. Its a personal poem so don’t feel obligated to read or comment if you really don’t want to.

    Always in my heart

    When I shut my eyes I cannot see you,
    I cannot remember the colour of your eyes…
    Your voice… has long since faded from my memory,
    I wish I could see your smile.

    I am filled with so many regrets
    That I didn’t work harder to hold onto who you were
    I hope you forgive me,
    My dearest angel
    I am sorry if I have caused you hurt

    I wake in the middle of the night you know…
    I wonder if you truly existed,
    Were you really here, with me… together?
    Did we experience all that we did?

    Or was it just a dream?
    A dream that I woke up from?
    If so… I long to sleep again,
    To drift to slumber and hold your hand.

    Dear Angel, I hope if you are out there somewhere,
    Watching over my torn soul…
    That you know I won’t forget you completely,
    Even if the details of moments stumble

    And if there is a chance I may see you again
    Please have faith and wait,
    And when the time is finally right
    All that has faded will flood back in a wave.

     


    February 15th, 2013 | Matty Angel | 4 Comments |

About The Author

Matty is a 37 year old girl who is an Autistic Poet, Writer and Artist and lives alone in Christchurch New Zealand with a kitty! Matty has given many talks on autism and about being unique in a world that's often not accepting, Matty has also engaged with artist and worked on Art projects Matty usually works on an Art project at the same time as a writing one! This means posts can be a bit delayed!

4 Responses and Counting...

  • Annabelle 02.15.2013

    Lovely poem Matty. You have a very special angel watching over you:)

  • Helen

    Beautiful, Matty. Your friend was lucky to have a friend like you. I’m sure she knew it. Hugs.

  • Etoile

    You remember the love, that’s all that is important.

  • HappyComfort

    I am sorry you lost someone you cared about so much. I hope it wasn’t your good friend, who used to visit you and help take care of you. The girl you used to talk about all the time. The holy Bible talks about a time when ones who die will be brought back in perfect health and those here will be given perfect health also. I can’t wait to see how you feel when that happens! How happy you will be and healthy! Anyway, take care! HUGS!

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