Wishing to be alive

  • NB: I think this is very old, I don’t know if its published on here or not, I found it in my poetry folder.

    Sitting in the dark so cold
    Amongst the shadows all alone
    Under the rain as it falls in song
    Dreaming of days long since gone
    Unsure of who is friend and foe
    Awaiting an angel whose comings flawed
    With silent tears dripping on
    Begging for feelings, wishing for help
    For emotion or for time to stop
    To feel alive, and know I exist
    Just to know I have not been abandoned yet
    To wake at last with eyes so wide
    Breath and end my sorrowful sighs
    Stop the tears and dry my eyes
    Just wishing… to be alive.


    August 6th, 2010 | Matty Angel | No Comments |

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Matty is a 36 year old girl who is an Autistic Poet, Writer and Artist and lives alone in Christchurch New Zealand with a kitty! Matty has given many talks on autism and about being unique in a world that's often not accepting, Matty has also engaged with artist and worked on Art projects Matty usually works on an Art project at the same time as a writing one! This means posts can be a bit delayed!

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  • Kathy 08.06.2010

    I have felt like that before. I wrote a poem forty years ago that reminds me of this poem called “The Lake of Life”

    Swimming on the lake of life
    trying not to drown
    it’s every man for himself
    or so I have found…
    as the waves are getting bigger
    and I think I’ve lost all hope
    one concerned and caring person
    always throws a rope…
    if I should miss that rope
    and sink into my grave
    I only hope beyond me…
    has only little waves.

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