Posts from the ‘Dark poems :(’ Category
NB: working through some things. Sorry, please be patient. – Box of pain. (Dark Poem) Today I shed some tears, As I opened my box of pain… I hoped time had made me strong But I was wrong in every way The memories tear my soul With a familiar burning pain I try to push […]
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NB: I am currently going through some very sensitive time consuming things. These things have to do with some very terrible incidents that happened in my past. When I wrote this I was not feeling very brave. But I am feeling much braver now. I am sorry if this makes anyone sad. -Love Matty That […]
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I have written this with assistance of 2 Nurses and a Doctor, friends of mine in America on the front line of a pandemic. They requested that I do not credit or mention their names. I respect this request, and so I dedicate this to all those facing and who have faced this terrible monster… […]
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I find myself living in memory I find myself living in memory Wishing I could change the past… Tearing up at what I did wrong And feeling guilty about decisions done. I question why things happened Wonder how I could be so stupid And I find myself believing something awful… That perhaps I deserve all […]
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NB: I am trying. So Very Lost I am lost in a daze Wandering my brain Questioning mistakes Feeling guilt over pain Time feels strange… Looping in unusual ways Fast and then slow With so much sorrow… To much changed To fast, to quick Love has been lost And emptiness found What comes next? Its […]
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NB: My life has fallen apart recently. at least with friendships. I have lost many and… a lot of it is my own fault. I have cried a lot, and felt lonely… also found myself with time I have no idea how to use. Saying Goodbye Its never easy to say goodbye Sometimes it makes […]
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Those biggest of big dreams When I was a just a little thing Staring up with the the biggest of big dreams I let my mind wander so peacefully… Of going to space Winning a race Climbing the biggest tree And then I grew Oh so big One day at a time Gradually And now […]
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NB: Sorry for posting a dark poem, but … I just so lonely lately. The darkness in this poem is loneliness. In the dark I am in the dark Isolated… Alone. I don’t know where the light is. I keep looking but… Where is it? How do I get the light on? I am crying, […]
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Still here. I feel rather lost Confused and quite scared Are the things of which I dream Can they really be had? Is there better? Or is this it? Do I have a future beyond “this?” I don’t know… I am not sure anyone knows… But I am trying, I am doing my best… I […]
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NB: I always find myself waiting on others to respond to me, and sometimes that waiting consumes me 🙁 Anxiety is one of the worst things in the world. If it be the loud noises that make me hyperventilate, unexpected touch, the cost of the vet… or someone getting back to me about something so […]
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