Posts from the ‘Dark poems :(’ Category
NB: I always find myself waiting on others to respond to me, and sometimes that waiting consumes me 🙁 Anxiety is one of the worst things in the world. If it be the loud noises that make me hyperventilate, unexpected touch, the cost of the vet… or someone getting back to me about something so […]
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The crossroad I find myself at a crossroad And so for this moment my journey is stalled A decision has to be made… Which way should I go? Left? Right? Ahead? One thing is certain though, Each way will ache my heart… So my future will surely have sorrow… That makes this so incredibly hard. […]
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NB: Just thinking about all my friends who have vanished these last years… No one in particular. Friendships are one of the hardest things I deal with. Even friendships that ended years ago sit at the top of my mind. Moving on without an end is so difficult. I think that might be the fault […]
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NB:Â Struggling with memories. There has been some crying lately. I am sorry… I’m trying. The past is always chasing me Its always in my mind The smallest unexpected thing… Can bring up haunting times. These ghosts that show themselves Can make me act in ways I regret I am so afraid of hurting someone… So […]
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NB: Just having some struggles lately. Belonging online This world to me is so foreign But the internet… well its even more so. I wish so much to belong somewhere. But everywhere I seem to go… Well… They make it hard to stay or even ask me to leave. One thing I have noticed is… That […]
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NB: Struggling with a horrible monster who messaged me recently. Its caused me great fear, its had me wondering if I should delete my website… Its left me scared and feeling vulnerable. Of all the Monsters I have ever met, this one is the most terrifying of all. When you meet a Monster When you […]
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NB: I am having a very tough time lately. One of my greatest fears is becoming a ghost, being invisible to people right in front of me. Those that treat me that way cause me so much pain, and create more anxiety than I can cope with. Because of this I had to leave an […]
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Just trying to work out my place in the world Recently it has occurred to me just how different I am I always knew I was out of the box… strange…. weird… But I never realized just how much I was. I realized recently… That I am old. But not in the usual sense… What I […]
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NB: I won’t lie, what happened to me those weeks ago still hurts and has left me feeling empty and hurt… it has left me with so many questions… and although I no longer feel bad for what happened. I guess pain takes a while to heal. I wrote this poem as my journey feels […]
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Dear world I have never felt more like a problem than these last few days. To those that don’t know I became suicidal and was placed in a crisis home. On Thursday I was sent home… only psych emergency decided I should go see them on my way home, not at the home before I […]
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