Posts from the ‘Dark poems :(’ Category

  • I am sorry… I’m trying (Sad poem)

    I am sorry… I’m trying (Sad poem)

    March 7th, 2017 | Dark poems :( | Matty Angel | 1 Comment

    NB: Struggling with memories. There has been some crying lately. I am sorry… I’m trying. The past is always chasing me Its always in my mind The smallest unexpected thing… Can bring up haunting times. These ghosts that show themselves Can make me act in ways I regret I am so afraid of hurting someone… So […]

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  • Belonging online

    Belonging online

    February 13th, 2017 | Dark poems :( | Matty Angel | 4 Comments

    NB: Just having some struggles lately. Belonging online This world to me is so foreign But the internet… well its even more so. I wish so much to belong somewhere. But everywhere I seem to go… Well… They make it hard to stay or even ask me to leave. One thing I have noticed is… That […]

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  • When you meet a Monster (Poem)

    When you meet a Monster (Poem)

    December 28th, 2016 | Dark poems :( | Matty Angel | 4 Comments

    NB: Struggling with a horrible monster who messaged me recently. Its caused me great fear, its had me wondering if I should delete my website… Its left me scared and feeling vulnerable. Of all the Monsters I have ever met, this one is the most terrifying of all. When you meet a Monster When you […]

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  • Run (Dark Poem)

    Run (Dark Poem)

    November 19th, 2016 | Dark poems :( | Matty Angel | 5 Comments

    NB: I am having a very tough time lately. One of my greatest fears is becoming a ghost, being invisible to people right in front of me. Those that treat me that way cause me so much pain, and create more anxiety than I can cope with. Because of this I had to leave an […]

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  • More thoughts and feelings…. Just trying to work out my place in the world

    More thoughts and feelings…. Just trying to work out my place in the world

    July 4th, 2015 | Dark poems :(, Other Poems | Matty Angel | 4 Comments

    Just trying to work out my place in the world Recently it has occurred to me just how different I am I always knew I was out of the box… strange…. weird… But I never realized just how much I was. I realized recently… That I am old. But not in the usual sense… What I […]

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  • Holding faith to my heart (poem)

    Holding faith to my heart (poem)

    May 5th, 2015 | Dark poems :(, Other Poems | Matty Angel | 4 Comments

    NB: I won’t lie, what happened to me those weeks ago still hurts and has left me feeling empty and hurt… it has left me with so many questions… and although I no longer feel bad for what happened. I guess pain takes a while to heal. I wrote this poem as my journey feels […]

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  • I feel like a problem… and I feel like I’m cursed. (Extremely long rambly rant)

    I feel like a problem… and I feel like I’m cursed. (Extremely long rambly rant)

    August 28th, 2014 | Dark poems :(, Other Writing | Matty Angel | 9 Comments

    Dear world I have never felt more like a problem than these last few days. To those that don’t know I became suicidal and was placed in a crisis home. On Thursday I was sent home… only psych emergency decided I should go see them on my way home, not at the home before I […]

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  • Not Yet (Poem)

    Not Yet (Poem)

    June 24th, 2014 | Dark poems :( | Matty Angel | 2 Comments

    NB: A bit sad… but I wrote this while I was away for some time… Its a poem from when I was feeling lost but did not want to give up. Not Yet Upon a bed Silence sings A mirror stares Is that me? I feel startled Confused and lost How is it that this came to pass? I clutch in my hands so […]

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  • Just her way (Poem)

    Just her way (Poem)

    April 7th, 2014 | Dark poems :( | Matty Angel | 3 Comments

    NB: I put this in Dark but its not a dark poem, just as a feeling that I could not place Just her way She sat on a chair Alone in the dark Waiting and waiting… But unsure for what… Hoping and wishing, Thinking in silence She prayed in her mind That there be an […]

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  • The longing (Poem)

    The longing (Poem)

    January 10th, 2014 | Dark poems :(, Other Poems | Matty Angel | 3 Comments

    NB: The title of this may change, for now its just called The Longing. The Longing Upon a day since past to time I lay upon some grass so fine The sun was smiling, so very high And the trees around stood quietly by As I looked up… to disbelief To see the clouds above […]

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